Okay, my life is damn screwed up.

I no longer know what i am doing anymore.

I see the things that i've done as kinda pointless.

Just yesterday i have to be such a bitch. Oh, it's not even just yesterday. Some months ago too.

What was i thinking?

People like me will be one of the reasons why adultery is committed.

Was lying on his bed yesterday and i told him i love him. He said i love you too.

Of course i don't love him. I was just testing myself, how easily can this sensitive and special word comes out of my mouth. Easy, it was.

Same goes for him i guess.

I feel like my life is kinda empty now. Suddenly. 

Imagine the disappointment those around me will feel when they know what the hell i've been doing for the past one year.  

It takes a lot of managing of emotions for those who are just like me.

The things we do will forever be unjustifiable to individuals who think their thoughts just the way the society, from long ago, has formatted into the human brain.

What is right and what is wrong.

Often people just like to do something wrong. Not that they accidentally committed a mistake, but they, just like me, find thrills doing the wrong things.

That the society will frown upon.

Yearns to be normal.