Great, am i falling in love or what?

Or is it just some crush, just like ERMS, again?

I guess only time will tell. Only that this time round, everything is kinda stupid because WE are soooooo far apart,

Me and TRAIN i mean. Goodness. We like each other so much that we even made pacts.

Pact no. 1: If there's anyone else in our lives, we will tell each other. Say if we get a bf/gf.

Pact no. 2: Can't tell. :p (sorry, a dampener i know.)

Pact no. 3: Dampener too, can't tell. =)

I am not supposed to do anything physical w any other man. That i do not like, that is. As i romantic feelings kinda "like". Not that i am not supposed to, it's i don't want to. For TRAIN. Not that he told me to do this for him. But u know, when 2 people like each other, thing's just this way, and how sweet is that. (so near yet so far =(     )

So same goes with him. Anyway, not much of a problem for him, as he is only into asians. Asian fetish. Haha.

He has been protective of late.

Well, what else do we say about us?

Learnt something today.

Some things are better not known.

Some things are better not told.

I really think i am falling into the vicious cycle of love again.

The one aspect that humans can't live without.

The one aspect that is capable of making one super nice and giving their all and all

YET

also capable of bringing out the ugliest of people.

And i really hate it. I will, from now on, take everything with a pinch of salt. Be it something nice, sweet or hateful that people say. Everything with a pinch of salt. Yes.

And i will refrain from falling in love. Don't be sad for me, people. I am just being happy, the way i want it to be.

Because all these time during my 4.5 years relationship with my ex, i experience nothing nice, absolutely nothing nice, about love.

Love is not accepting who the person is,

instead, a manipulation of him/her into becoming someone that u want he/she to be.

Simply by saying, "If you love me, you should __________".

(fill in the blank. i'm sure there's a lot more than just a blank.)

Love is not without jealousy.

Often people get jealous for the smallest of matters.

(girls out there, u get what i mean, i am 101% sure)

Loving someone, you will give that person freedom. NOT.

Instead, being in a relationship is like a convict in the jail. Except this time round it is 100 times worse. Your heart and soul jailed too.

Forgive and forget and start afresh.

Bullshit.

Anyone knows it is easier said than done. Often it is not done.

Forgive, yes, for those magnanimous enough.

Forget, unless thou dies.

And the past will always be brought up when quarreling.

More damage done than issues solved.

Love is compromising.

This i agree.

Typical convo: "if i can do this for u, u should be doing that for me too."

See?

All about giving and not expecting anything in return.

Double bullshit.

Really?

Sure?

100% sure?

101% sure?

See what i mean?

Typical convo again: "If u really love me, you will ______. "

Gosh, i can just go on and on and on.

Face it, those love-strucked.

Reality is, people have moved on from being nice (like a thousand years ago, B.C?) to being creatures who are self centered, who loves themselves more and detestable beings that want things done their way.

That said, yes, i am including myself when i typed the above paragraph.

How terrible is love?

U think about it, sleep on it.

I will NOT fall in love.