OKIE!!!!! I have decided to do a short (i hope it doesn't get draggy) post.

PRCP is into it's forth week. Or is it fifth? Okay it's fifth. Just counted. SOOOOOO FAST!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway i'm starting to like PRCP and what i am doing. Quite cool. LOOOOVE interacting with the patients. So cute, some of them. This cute malay grandmother wanted to stroke my face! Hahahaha.... CUUUUUUTE.

Okie, that's all for PRCP. Oh, my preceptor's funny and nice and drives and sometimes gave me rides home. (because he lives in the next estate.)

Note: It's not all the way home. Just to my bus stop.

Anyway he say i have the potential to be a good nurse. Have the charisma. WTF! I was like, "what? since when does charisma have got to do with the ability of being a good nurse?"

Nonsense!!!!!!!!!

Ok that's all for PRCP.

As for Thomas... He sent an SMS on tuesday saying, 

"Darling... it is so white here.. i wish i could go for a walk with u through the snow..but...i am very sad....and i dont want to make u sad, but i want to be honest...the institute where i wrote my thesis offered me a phd program. the institute is very outstanding and one of the best engineering institutes in the world... not many people get this chance... and now i don't know what to do...we need to talk... MISS U SOO MUCH <3>

And did i mention this SMS totally caught me at the wrong time? I just woke up at like, 5 plus pm, after my night shift in the morning...

Needless to say i felt damn damn damn sad... So i replied, 

"be a good student."

How could i still be happy if he comes back when he could've taken his phd?

It'd be waaaay too selfish. And if i were him, i will take up the offer no matter what.

He then said " Don't say that and i am so sad... i have nothing decided... and i am worried..... i never received such short message. Can we talk during the weekend?"

I was (finally!) like, "i love you, thomas. I just want the best for u. it's simple."

him: "Oh Mae, I love u too!!! And i miss you so damn much... we will talk on sat or sun if u find some time...and...nothing is decided...i also applied in SG!!!"

Me: "Baby, i can't be so selfish n b happy if u come back, when u could've taken your phd. i wont be happy if you are back. that will be too selfish and mean of me. the answer is pretty definite on my side. all i can do as your bestfriend now will be encouraging you to go for further education. the best choice is not always something we want and like. SIGH. i will miss u a lot, but i'd rather miss u than feel guilty for anything. i've not waited in vain too. =) now that i'm proud of u being offered such rare chance. i can always go over. or u can come. only for holiday. =)"

Him:"noooooo... i mean... it's sweet what u are saying but... i dont wanna lose u!!! U belong to me and i DO NOT want to see or imagine u with another guy!!! SOOO SAD.

Him: "But i don't even know if i wanna do it....it will be a very stressful job!!!! let's not talk about this until the weekend..."

Me: "i dont wanna lose u too. let's talk this weekend then. too much t tell you, dunno where to start." 

Him: "Same here baby... yes, we talk on the weekend =) MUUUUAAAAACK!!!! I am only think about u!!! <3"

Oh well.... So after this we were just talking over msn at night... He was telling me his mind says take up the offer, his heart says come back, and usually he let his heart wins...

And not to feel guilty if we don't work out, and that he likes this country... (WTF!!!!!!) 

Yup, but still, that is not his decision yet. If he's not coming over, i'm visiting him in march. YAY!

Tour again. =)

I've already started buying winter wear! Love winter trends.

Till then! Gonna ZZZZzzzzzzz. 

PM shift tomorrow. SUCKS. On a S-AT-U-R-D-A-Y.