Okie stupid piggy face we make.

Tryna endorse the product. Haha.

That's Artistry foundation, by the way.

Ahhh.... How sweet.

Lesbian picture.

Shit i'm gonna die, NOT.

My sweetness returned.

Trying hard to look solemn.

Bad attempt, for me, as u can see a smile on the edge of appearing.

Act cute. (me la me la.)

Ok what the hell am i doing in class? Supervising people.

Just discovered this picture was taken. And i think by Juliana.

Best friend forever! BFF.

Being bimbotic.

Ever since TRAIN's (the AM) departure, no more ass to kick, so my friend's a good substitute. 

NICE.....

We're calling each other.

See, this is what happens when one's had too many late nights out, drinking coffee, getting all hyped up.

I NEEEEEEDDDD MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! coffee.

First and foremost, see my bright pink highlight!!!!

Actually it's  just a hair extension.

Shit, as i am typing all these my eyes are semi closed.

As of late i am always tired, though i drink a considerable amount of coffee.

All the mocha frappes at Starbucks and Coffeebean and McCafe... 

IT"S NOT HELPING!

Probably been spending too much time on MSN.

From wee hours in the night till early dawn.

With my on going fling, The Train.

I've just gotten myself another two piercing on my ears.

Four holes on each side.

Oh pardon me, i think i am being soooooo random.

Right, with train, i am currently like, seeing him online. It's so stupid right...

Talking through Skype video calls.

But i thank god for this application.

Remember when he first flew back to Germany i was just like, I'm gonna miss him sooo much.

But but but, Skype changed things.

I don't miss him that much now.

Okay am i even talking sense?

Late nights have taken a toll on me and my skin.

Haha...

and this my random pic.

Okay... Finally got my internet connection thing settled. Now will be able to blog more often.

Recently have been thinking sooooooo much about live (as always) and money matters.

Short of cash? Of course not.

But need MORE $$$$$....

Who doesn't?

Thinking about what i want to achieve and have and own within the next four years.

At the age of 24, owning all these, not too bad right? Quite an achievement. And what will be the "these" that i want?

These are:

1.Own a Honda Airwave (at least)

2.To have gone Europe at least once.

3.Gone Redang beach.

4.Shop in New York.

5.Being able to afford labels without having to scrimp and save every single cent, then buy the item and live on bread and water for days.

6. To live in a condominium. (this i am depending on my sister. I'm sure she can.)

7. Stayed a night (at least) in Fullerton hotel.

8. Been on the London's eye.

Honda airwave. Yes i know i said my dream car is VW Beetle cabriolet.

But but but.... 

This is not bad for a start.

Further more, i wanna be able to drive my family around.

Think go grocery shopping. =)

Or Ikea.

Or to the beach with Claire's bicycle.

Right now it's like this. Wanna see what i have in store for myself in the next ten years following this "these"?

1. Been to switzerland

2. Own a BMW or Porsche (with my husband or then boyfriend)

3. Landed property? Or some apartment in the city area.

4. Hopefully with a baby. (or maybe not. still can't decide whether kids are cute or irritating.)

5. Have a degree in something. (from a reputable university, DUH. Not MDIS.)

6. Have my own VW Beetle.

7. Earning minimum of 3K per month.

And i am not thinking about credit cards yet, cause apparently those banks are like money suckers. Plus, if i am really rich, i don't need to use "advance cash" for shopping.

Here's some pictures.

Craziness. Taken when i'm fucking high.

Semi drunk.

High again. But i like this pic.

Pretty nails! Darkest hand is Ruth's, Black fingernails' Deb's, bright pink's mine. (goes without saying.)

Goodnight and till then!

PS: High achiever.

Craziness....

Had the longest conversation with my dad about cars.

Cars, how much they cost, and if a car costing SGD75,000, how much will the COE be, the road tax for a small car, insurance, installments, parking fees, petrol consumption, the engine c.c, maintenance.

Good gracious. And how much will all these add up to?

The installment and bank loan part, it all depends on how much is your gross salary per annum and whether or not the bank is nice to you, for the fact that they give you a loan over either a longer period (incurring more earning cause of the interest, for them) or a short period (lesser interest paid on the whole, but meaning you have to pay a lot for your car each month that you may just on the whole have to live and survive on bread.)

How cool is that? Not. 

Not at all.

Thus i've come to this conclusion, that cars, or vans or lorries or trucks, AUTOMOBILES, in general, ARE FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE FREAKING RICH.

There. Point made.

BUT BUT BUT.......................

I still want a car by 2010.

Wanna OWN a car by 2010.

It's not too far from now, ain't it? Can you imagine, by then everybody will be using a HTC phone or blackberry, there will only be 3G phones and it is like the minimum anyone can own.

Gosh, i can just continue with all these... Tech freaks...

Ok so my dream car will be, VW beetle. Preferably beetle cabriolet. What else??????? Has been and will always be, until i get my hands on the steering wheel.

Then my dream car will probably be a mercedes or something higher end.

I speak as though cars are clothes.

In a way they are. People are competing against each other when it comes to cars.

Whose is more expensive? Whose is bigger?

I will definitely bling my car.

So if you see a car with some blings on it someday down the road in 2010, that would be me inside, driving it. Hopefully the car you see will be a beetle. 

But if i'm not rich enough for a beetle, any Nissan or Toyota or Hyundai or Honda (yes u got it, any Japan brand) will suffice.

And i can imagine my sister complaining if i get myself a beetle.

She was so against it when i told her that's something i wanna get.

"So small! Cramp! Only two doors, wanna get in behind is difficult. Too small"

RIGHT.......

I AM PETITE, hello. Look who's driving!

U know that statement (look who's driving) is something i so damn wanna say, just to anyone, haha! 

Oh my god this is fucking cool! I can use SKYPE!!!! Video calling!!!!!!

Okay, no big deal right, for most of you... Cause you guys using Windows, so definitely can use web cam and all on MSN. For me, MSN is really not up to date. Or rather, Mac's version of MSN is not up to date with Window's. 

So for example, if you nudge me through MSN, i can't get the nudge. What i get is stupid MSN telling me to go download a newer version of it. Like DUH!!!! If Mac's MSN has a newer version for me, i will be the first to download.

Anyway, SKYPE is great. Love it!

And that's me and TRAIN.

Was at the airport sending him off. 

He looks old but he is not. Maybe i'm the one who looks young. 

HAHAHAHA...

Flings 101

The past few weeks have been so.... HECTIC.

With projects piling sky high (ok maybe not, i'm just exaggerating to make myself feel good that i have done some work), and exams coming up, everything is just, accumulating.

Very menacing, the datelines.

Also i have gotten myself yet another phone. LG Viewty!!! Love of my life right now. According to Ruth the tech guru, she says these kinda phones( fully touchscreen) are called candybars. And how cool is that? So cute! Haven't bling it though, except for the stylus. Just a simple straight line down it. Have learnt that less is definitely more.

ONLY for the case of blings (okay maybe sometimes more is better) and make up.

SO.... My life has been, crazy.

As usual.

And as usual i'm spending lots of time thinking how i want it to be.

What i want myself to be.

I want the simple life. Simple like, have the average boyfriend and get married (of course not now, i meant in the future.) and settle down and lead the life the average typical singaporean leads.

I also want the super interesting life of, having someone from another race or country (by another country i meant somewhere far and not from asia, and yes you guessed it someone from another race meaning "ang mohs") as a boyfriend and then get married and either stay in wherever the person comes from or stay in singapore but travel lots.

Lots and lots.

So how?

What is the verdict?

Verdict is, i'm a 180 to the first option. Though part of me wants it, but i have come to such point that i can't stop. Can't stop looking at "ang mohs".

All thanks to TRAIN.

Oh fuck, haven't told about ERMS yet.

ERMS: 

He didn't ask me to be his girl at all. He conveniently just presume i wanna be his and just called me his girlfriend in front of his friends. MCP. So naturally, i dumped him.

The dumping conversation goes,

SMS to ERMS: (something like this, can't remember the exact.) Right from the start i told you i don't wanna have a relationship just yet, not now, and not in the near future. And this won't change. And you just assume that i am your girlfriend without asking me. But that doesn't matter now, because i don't wanna have a relationship. When i said we be flings, i was serious. Nothing more but flings, and when flings starts to get serious, i back out. Don't try to change me, i don't wanna get committed and you can't change me. We were never together.

He called me back and said: Do you remember who was it that ask me what's our status now? (asked him a month back and he said i'm his girlfriend)

Me: I know i was the one who asked. But do you remember YOU are the only one saying i'm your girlfriend but i didn't say anything about you being me boyfriend? (all along is him him him man, see why i wanna dump him already? Doesn't even bother bout my opinion.)

Him: okay then i'm sorry, so all along it's me who's thinking too much. (yes you.)

Me: Nah, don't say sorry, i'm at fault too. I didn't stop you when you claimed i'm your girlfriend.

(of course it's not my fault. you don't know how to read my signals and just think too highly of yourself by telling me you know i am falling in love with you as days go by. bullshit. i didn't tell you i am not because i don't wanna crush your ego. Then again, i think i crushed you already.)

Him: And can you don't use the word i love you? Cause to me it is a really strong word. (whatever! because when you first said you love me it was a week after you know me. And how is that possible to love someone within a week? naturally i don't take that seriously so when i said i love you, i wasn't serious too.)

Me: okay.

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Cause for a few weeks i was already pondering why do i even think about being together with him. He is so..... SLOPPY.

Enough said. If i were to list out the reasons why i don't want him as a boyfriend, the list will reach Antarctica. Okay, exaggerating again. The list will be damn long and i would prefer to talk about it rather than typing it all out.

So, about the TRAIN. It's this ang moh (i call them the AM for short.)

Gosh now i have to type out all the details?

Nah i think i won't. Too lazy.

Just a brief insight.

Haha.

Yeah so i met this AM and me and my friends named him TRAIN. He's sweet. Spent some crazy and wild nights with him, two mornings cuddling, lots of time sms-ing. The ultimate fling. It was like a two weeks thing, maybe shorter. But nice. Short and sweet.

So that got me thinking. And Diana saying that AMs are better lovers does have an effect, somehow, on my thinking too. 

What is my point?

My point is TRAIN has somehow changed my thinking a little. I want the exciting life. And after him i just can't look at chinese guys anymore. And his presence for that period made me realize i really have nothing, no feelings for ERMS at all. I must remember to thank TRAIN for that. And anyway he's left for Germany. Hometown.

Meanwhile i'm here waiting for exams to come and waiting for true love to come.

NOT.

I don't believe in love anymore. Cliche and cheesy i know, but that's the truth.

What is love? I just know it brings out people's ugly side.

Anyway relationships just get boring after awhile.

Well, till then. When i find someone.

Right now, it just gets lonelier. But i believe it'll be better. Promised Ruth that i will be a traditional chicken for now till after exams.

So, no guys for now.

I WANT AND NEED TO TRAVEL!!!!! WILL TRAVEL SOON.