I hate copycats.
pronto.

Bloggie!
I'm feeling more down than ever man...

He's in Taiwan already!
I don't know how am i supposed to survive the next two weeks plus.
Well, maybe i can.
Maybe i will realize that i don't need him anymore.
And what are the odds of that happening?
I don't know.
I want to travel man. Badly.
But i need to get a new phone even more badly.

But i can't decide what phone i should get man!
Somebody please help.
*haha*

By the way, i'll be going out with my long lost friend tomorrow!
Guess who?

PRIYANKA!!!!

Actually not long lost...
Last saw her around, 2 weeks ago?
And guess where i saw her?
Little india!
Indigo palace.
*haha*
She's there for threading too.

Saturday gonna go sun tanning with Diana.
Don't know if the weather will be kind to us.
Hopefully.

And then gonna work on sunday after my music lesson.
Know why I'm so occupied?
I try to be.
To make time pass faster.

Ok and now i shall go update my MySpace.
Been quite a while since i updated.
And that will help me kill time...

Till then!

I'm feeling a little down today.
WHY???
'Cause he's going Taiwan in less than 12 hours' time.
To be exact, 8 hours' time.
Gonna miss him sooo much.

Will be sending him to the airport later.

Nothing can improve my mood now.

Till then.

This is a picture of me and him.
Walking down the path to his house.
I think he's checking out what the hell i am doing, judging but the angle of his head in the picture.
Quite a nice and special pic, ain't it?
Think i will take more such artistic picture in the future!
*haha*

Went with my dearest family to eat buffet dinner at Geylang on Saturday.
Before going, all of us were so excited, going like, "I'm gonna eat so much later on!"
And, "let's go for ice cream after dinner."

But who knew, when we get to the "restaurant" and after eating for two rounds, we can't take the fullnest anymore.
Stuffed ourselves silly.
Think i identified a prostitude too.
She's 'bout my mum's age and dressed trashy.
She's with a guy that's older than my dad and was treating him super nice, like asking, "what do u want to eat?" in the super act cute voice (maybe to her it's sexy).
I mean, it's a buffet man!
Who takes food for another person?
Crazy.
Insane.
Definitely a hooker.
And the thought of going for ice cream after that made us cringe.
*haha*

In the car after the buffet at Geylang.

Sounds wrong, i know.

After the sumptous buffet, we went to Bro-in-law's workplace cause he's gotta do something on his com.
So while waiting, dad slept in the car, while the three women (me, sis and mum) went to Rafflescity to walk around.
And boy!
I was dressed in such sloppy states!
I was in a pair of board shorts and a t-shirt, wearing slippers.
I feel stupid la.
But the feeling of dressing way down was kinda nice.
Simple and comfy.
So that explains why I'm sooo gonna go out with my darlin' tomorrow to buy more tees.
=)

Days till he leaves for Taiwan: 2 and half days' time.

Heya bloggie...
Seems like i've been updating almost everyday...
Cause I'm simply too free.

Watched Mr Bean's holiday today.
Uber funny man.
Hohoho...
Nice plot.
Didn't know that his camcorder is so useful...

Right now i'm at dada's house, so nothing much to do.

Anyway, just can't wait to start work and earn more cash!
$$$$
I want my D&G...
Till then!

Countig down my days with him left till he go Taiwan.
Count: 3 full days.

Holiday blues are coming to me...
I'm soooooo bored!
Absolutely nothing much for me to do.

Mum's nagging at me for my messy room, which looks like a guy's instead of a girl's.
Haha.
That is soooo what Jiuun Yuan says when he came over my house for sleepover b4 going HK.
It's true la.
My room doesn't reflect my sex; instead, the opposite.
=)

Other than my make up products that's a tell-all.

Bought my fav magazine yesterday!
With my not so favourite star on the cover.
Jessica Simpson...
...



Went out with Diana yesterday to makan.
Pasta of course!
*what else?*
Was uber fun!
With lotsa crap.
Bought yet another ribbed tee from where else but fav shop?
My friends said whenever they saw ribbed shirts, they get reminded of me.
Cause most of my clothes' material are ribbed.
100% true!

Anyway, that's about it.
Will be working at Far East Plaza starting April 7.
Kill time and earn some $$$ for my new phone.
*haha*

Till then.

Heya Bloggie!

Went shopping with Yiwen yesterday.
Initially wanted to get Barbie loves M.A.C collection.
But in the end, guess what I got instead?

Dior.

In my friendster blog, i said i want a mascara that
volumizes,
curls,
and
lenghthens,
at the same time being
waterproof
and
smudgeproof.

I also said that if there's a man who can find me this type of impossible mascara, i will marry him.
And u know what happened???!!
I found the type of mascara that i want so badly while shopping yesterday at Tangs.
And the guy at the Dior counter was the one who help me discover that mascara.
Sounds exaggerated i know.
But that's the truth.
Finally found my true love!

Diorshow waterproof!
Volumizes+curls+lengthens+waterproof+smudgeproof=my love.
*muacck*





And afterwards, Yiwen was teasing me 'bout marrying that guy at the counter!
He's nice la, but a tad gayish.
(no wonder he works at a beauty counter)
Who wants him when i've my manly guy with me?
*hohoho*

Bought this out of convenience's sake too.
Something I've been eyeing on for months.
Dior Addict 2!




It's even nicer after opening!


One of them is sparkly.
Told ya i love blings.
And pink.


Anyway, my true love don't come cheap.

Just like all true love, it burnt a hole in my pocket.
That's a sacrifice that i've to make.
That is to go shopping with lesser $$$ this weekend!
*boohoo*

And was talking 'bout lotsa funny things yesterday with Yiwen.
Met Siew kee kee at far east too while waiting for Yiwen.
Stayed in her shop for awhile.
Then her colleague came and told me i can start working in april!
Yesss!!!
Kill time and earn some money for my new phone.
My current phone's like a piece of shit now.
Boredom, be gone...

Bloggie!
Today's the first day of my holidays and I'm already getting bored.
Yet i know when school starts, i'll be grumbling 'bout how holidays are not long enough.
Ironic, contradicting, i know.

Just came back from a trip to the SUPERMARKET!
*hohoho*
To buy what?
Magazine.
CLEO!
It's become yet another favourite magazine of mine other than SEVENTEEN and DOLLY.
And then i found out that M.A.C is collaborating with Barbie for Barbie series make-ups..
And i'm sooooo gonna get them!
It's so cute and flirty.
I've a young girl in me you know...
*bleah*
And i'm sooooo gonna get the make over by their artists.
Ok, enough 'bout M.A.C.

Was thinking 'bout him going to Taiwan in 9 days' time.
So sad...
Was crying abit yesterday.
The tears were also spurred on by the DVD i'm watching; Aquamarine.
Saw the two grils being separated, and it reminds me of my darling.
*sigh*

So i will go and work during the hols to kill time and try to get my mind off him, while waiting for him to be back.

Sad right, life's so filled with separation.
And more moments like these sorts.

Ahh! i know!
Maybe i could ask him to purchase M.A.C make-up for me from Taiwan!
*hee*
But then again, he might not even know what's a mascara.
So cute right, him.
Ok, all i know is i gotta go do more shopping and tanning.
And buy more bikinis.
*lalala*

Gonna go read my magazine now!
My every month magazine fix!
=)
Till then!

Yesterday was super fun!
I'm with my two bestfriend and i think they clique well.
Let me recount to you what happened.

Me and Yiwen was on the way to SJPS and it was already pass 7.30pm.
Diana had called earlier on and said the place is still relatively empty.
So me and Yiwen relaxed la, and take our time.
We reached there and took the ticks from Diana.
Made our way to the entrance and guess what??!!!
It's FULL HOUSE.
Yes, in caps.
FULL HOUSE.
We did think of sneaking in, and when i opened the door,
we saw man in black tee, tee printed something like,
CLEO blah blah.
Didn't take a good look at it.
So we were like, shit la, can't sneak in cause the man is there guarding the door.
So i called Diana and tell her our situation.
Said she was at back stage and so she can't help sneak us in.
I told her 'bout the man in black printed tee,
and guess what she said?
He's one of the bachelor!!!!
*what the hell*
Cause he's not ven that WOW looking.
Hmm.
So in the end we went to other clubs, and it's still free entrance cause it's happy hour.
So we got our hands stamped with the UV light thing.
And guess what?
The stamp can be used in the whole of SJPS.

After loitering in some sucky club called Dragonfly, we decided to go eat.
It was gonna be ten then, we were quite hungry.
And ate indian food.
Prata for me.
Banana and plain one.
DAmn full.
After eating, people always tend to go toilet.
We were looking high and low, left and right.
But we don't know where to get a toilet.
By then a lot of people are already queuing outside the various clubs.
People are queuing and waiting to get in.
The yiwen was like, "we have the stamp!"
And so we showed it to the bouncer, and we were immediately allowed in.
*muhahaha*
Into yet another sucky club named Bellini.
We felt so smug...
After the event at Power House, we went to look for Diana there.
She's still inside, and outside there's a long queue again.
And again we used our stamped hand to get us immediate entry.
So we felt smug again... i'd say.
And we were dancing and drinking away inside...
Pity Diana has to go first...
So me and Yiwen stayed on and dance on...
The music is getting better and better.
When we decided that it will be the last song for us, some guy came to us then started dancing with us.
I was like grinding the guy for awhile...
*wicked laugh*
He's quite good looking too.
Some non local by the name of James.
He's the Dark kinda ang moh i think.
My feet hurts from the dancing in such high heels.
After the grinding, we left.
Too tired.

Anyway, here's the photo of us, a night out yesterday.
=)




While waiting for seats in the prata house, we took this picture.

HMMM! Cannot go in to the event!



My 2 best friends and me in pwer house.
Lucky girl right...




After dancing, resting our foot and drinking chilled water.

Heya bloggie!
Guess what?
Today is the last last last day of attachment!!!
I'm sooooo overjoyed.
And i think it's the best attachment ever!
The first attachment's not too bad.
The nurses are nice, but the SISTERS SUCKS.
But the air conditioned enviroment is an incentive la.
The second attachment's worse.
There's 2 CIs keeping close look and monitoring on us.
And the SISTERS ARE WORSE, compared to the first.
Third is not bad.
A and B class again.
Air conditoned,
SISTERS ARE NICE THIS TIME ROUND.
They praise the students and bothered to interact with us...
Not like in 55A and 73B, ostracise us like they are soooo high up there.
*smell my foot man*

Diana's working at CLEO magazine as an intern now...
Such a lucky girl!
Get to shop for clothes to be featured in the magazine!
*green with jealousy!*
And GUESS WHAT?
She's got ticks to the CLEO's 50 most eligible bachelor bash at,
St. James Power Station, Power House!
My my...
And she's giving me the ticks man...
I'm so lucky right?
I can bring like, 3 other people with me,
and of course i asked Yiwen.
I'm so gonna get the 2 of them to meet.
And dearest Shah wants to run from attachment to go la!
*brave*

I'm so gonna wear my favourite fakies!
Look!
That's me being so bored while waiting for Diana after work to go Little India.
Haha...

Like some loner right...
*gee*


Right, I'm so excited 'bout later!
SJPS!
Thinkin' of what to wear right now...
Yiwen's going red.
I think i will go black or white.
=)
*crack my brains*

These are my Sem 2 results...

HS 1029 B+ 75 - <80%
Hs 1032 C+ 65 - <70%
HS 1034 B 70 - <75%
HS 1037 C+ 65 - <70%
Hs 1082 C 60 - <65%
HS 1083 C 60 - <65%
HS 4107 B 70 - <75%

It is actually considered ok.

Actually it's damn good.
*hohoho*

Because i never even put in any effort at all for these exams!

Serious man...

And it's an improvement from last sem's result.

At least no Ds...

Will aim to get As next time. =)

Smoked through everything this time.

WHEW!!!

And how 'bout all these pictures of my darling, the self proclaimed K Box King?
On his birthday at K Box.
Yeah, it's FUCKING dark i know...

This is like my current obssession!!!!
Fakies!!!

That's what i call 'em
Loving them.

Me and my gang (me, Sze Hui & Yiwen) even went to get another pair when we were at Holland V just for the fun of putting it on there and then.
*hahaha*
Was super fun + funny.
The amount of things you can do with your besties.


This picture is bloody funny la.
Was trying to show off how long my lashes are there and then.

Yet you can't really see from this pic though.



Night at Holland V drinking.

Sze Hui, Yiwen, Me!!!



The super nice drinks.

*Ahh...*

Hey hey hey!!!!
Know what!
First time i updated during a weekday on an attachment night!
*tsk tsk*

Tired of course, but my love for you bloggie, made me update in you at this hour.
*giggles*
Everything is fine, just the occassional dispute with him.
Almost break up in fact.
Broke up actually.
But that guy was like, "i don't want... can?"
Then all the phone call and sms that he sends, unanswered and replied, of course.
For a moment i was enjoying all the attention.
But i was reminded of how hurt i am by him.
HIM.
In the end no choice.
He was begging for me to answer his call.
So alright, considering we were together for 3 years.
*damn*
My heart go all soft and stuff, and guess what?
*like "duh..."*
We patched lor.

Was talking to Peiru about it.
Yes you heard me right.
Peiru. But not myself of course.
*who talks to themselves?*
My other friend who is also namesake Peiru.
And she's my boyfriend's cousin!
How coincidental.
Ok, back to my point.
Talked to her 'bout it and she says she feel i don't really love him anymore.
As in, just habitual love for him, but not the go gaga over him kinda love.
Ok, maybe that is sort of true.
After all this is what Diana says she feels too.

Yup so i just wanna tell you a little bit 'bout my love life.
By the way, here's the delicious mask after opening.




See? Really delicious right?
*never tasted it though*
Best for my skin!

Met up with Diana (a.k.a known as yaya and my pet name is momo) on thursday 1st march, last thurs.
And the usual, we ate pasta for dinner! =)
My most favourite is Arrabiata spaghetti! *hohoho*
Everytime wanted to order something else to try, but just don't know why, when i'm there looking at the menu, Arrabiata just scream at me...
Yup, and so after that, we went to face shop to buy something from there.
Bought my gltter mascara (now my fav! ) and a cute pack of facial masks.
Actually, it doesn't come in a pack. it comes in squarish cartons.



See? so cute right?




It look so delicious



No wonder they say








DO NOT EAT!

Heya!!!
I only have the precious time to update you on weekends.
The rest of the days, I'm just too tired after work to be bothered by anything.
Anyway, this is a late uploading of pictures from chalet. haha...
The funny things that we do.
Though the kite flying was fun.
Me and da's kite was spoilt, so we went to steal others' kite that's already flying up high.
Hee...
*Cheeky grin*

Think i bored you with all the worda from the last 2 post.
Here's a few pictures.
Pictures that says a thousand words!
*haha*

Look at that! The school's fountain looks nice for once.
Don't you feel like just jumping in and wadding in that on a hot day?

*HOHOHO*


Seriously bloggie, tell ya something
.
I MISS MY STRAIGHT HAIR!!!!
*Boohoo*



This is the mickey and minnie he gave me for christmas...
Sitting in my cupboard now.
The head is actually jig saw pieces joined together u know?

Will they survive the verdict?
*sigh*

Heya bloggie! It's been quite some time since i updated in you...
The last blog entry of mine is pretty saddening right?
But I'm trying hard to get over it. Real soon.
So tired of all the hurt i recieved in return for the numerous sweet things I've done...
*heartache*

I just told him that if he's not gonna do the things i told him that i want before, e.g going out to somewhere blah blah, I;m just gonna end everything.
Now I don't see much point for a relationship.
It's really a waste of time and energy.
Esp when the other party is super passive.
I'm in a dilemma.
Sometimes i feel he is super nice, sometimes i don't.
Sometimes i feel like giving up, other time i don't.
Told him i feel like breaking up, cause he's not very appreciative of what I've done.
His tone in talking to me also not very nice to my ears.
This is so fucking crazy...
Yet i'm sure it's nothing to do with my PMS, cuz I'm not having IT.
It'll be a cycle, i know.
Breaking up, being nice and treasuring me, got me back then slack.
So i shall end this cycle if it happens again.
End it at stage one.
Think of the time and freedom I'll have to myself and for him.
Right now it just seemed like it's the best thing to do.
The mum and dad treat me good, but this will not be the reason that I'm staying.
What for drag when you know he's not gonna be the one?
As the chinese saying goes, "chang tong bu ru duan tong".
100% correct and makes sense.
Suffer for a short while rather than for very long.
*suffer suffer suffer*

Hmm...

Too much has happened la.
And we're together for so long he has taken me for granted.
All the sweetness is gone, long gone.
So yes, in a few months time, it'll be time for my verdict.

The verdict.

Will see how then.

SSS (super sad story)

SSS (Super Sad Story)


Girl was watching guy play poker and that was when guy took out his wallet to draw out some more notes for the bet.
Something in the wallet caught girl’s attention and it was the neoprint that guy and girl took when they were out together.
Girl was feeling nostalgic and wanted to take a look at all the picture they took together right from the first print,
She waited patiently for guy to finish his game and when they were sitting together on the couch, she took guy’s wallet from his hand and opened it up.
She then started to take out the various print that’s all in the transparent pocket in guy’s wallet.
Guy looked slightly alarmed to girl and he said,

“What are you doing? Don’t take them out!”

Girl looked confused and asked, “why?”

Guy said, “I took a long time to arrange these nicely. You’ll mess it up!”

“ You jolly well know that I will put it back in nicely, even nicer than your arrangement!” girl said, amused by guy’s neatness.

Guy then withdrew the wallet and said no in the playful way.
Girl was puzzled by why guy was acting so secretive ‘bout his wallet.
“Please let me see!”
“No, unless you let me bite on your hand like you do just now.”
Girl had bitten guy’s hand out of playfulness earlier on.
“Ok, bite it then.”
Guy brought his teeth near to girl’s arm, but didn’t do it in the end.
He still refused to let girl take a look at his neoprints.
She followed him into the bedroom, and he teased her by waving his wallet at her, then proceeded to lie on the bed, with the wallet underneath the pillow and his hands guarding it.
Girl just wanted to have a little fun with him, thus went to him and tried to pull his wallet out from underneath.
They started off by having a friendly fight over the wallet, by tickling each other.
But as the fight wore on, it started to get violent, and both were using strength.
Nobody knew that this little fight will be changing girl’s feeling ‘bout guy for the rest of her life.
The fight continued, but girl got tired eventually.
She was pretty angry at this point of time.
She told guy, “There must be something you’re hiding from me. There’s no reason otherwise that you need to keep it from me. “
They are both tired, very tired from the fight, thus laid on the bed.
In a state of fury, guy threw the wallet at girl, and it hit the girl’s right cheek.
She said nothing, rubbed her cheeks and then proceeded to take out all the neoprints one by one.

Her heart stopped.

For a moment she was lost.

Instinct and overwhelming emotions got her up on her feet, walking out of the door, going down the stairs, then broke into a run on the road.

Eyes filled with tears, she fled down the road, with the image of this particular neoprint etched in her mind.

The picture that guy and two other girls take together, none of which is the girl.

It was two girls, and one of them someone girl disapprove of.

Hated.

Disliked.

Paranoid towards.

It was the girl who caused them to quarrel for a few months.
The girl in the picture was someone who has caused much trouble to the loving couple.

Arguments.

Disagreements.

Tears kept flowing, and even if the gravity has an up pulling force instead of a down pulling one, the tears will not stop flowing downwards.
Grieve, hatred, sadness, disappointment, and hurt all rolled into one.
Those like a giant ball weighing the crying girl down, she stopped running and sat on the pathway beside the drive.

Yet the tears did not stop.
Nothing can make it stop.
Girl did not want her friends to worry ‘bout her, as it was a gathering of a lot of friends that night, and some had witnessed the “fight” on the bed with guy.
She started walking back, and she saw guy midway.
She stopped in her tracks, and turned 180 degree to go back to where she was coming from.
Guy did not stop following her. He approached her and started pacing back and forth in front of her.
Girl asked him to sit down on the pathway with her.
He blatantly refused.
Even when the girl said, “Just count as a beg you…”

Girl was hurt yet again.
“Why can’t he just do something simple that I want him to do like sitting down?”
Girl thought that he didn’t love her enough to such a simple request.
She don’t understand why guy is so angry at her, even when she’s so hurt.

She asked, “When did you take that picture?”
Guy: “When we break.”
“What were you guys doing together?”
“Discussing our relationship problem. It was a simple supper, that’s all.”

Girl stood up, sunddenly raging.

She plunges forward and hurt guy on the chest, said

“I HATE YOU!”,

after which kept on running into nothingness.

Guy followed in heavy pursuit.

Girl got tired of running, then stopped in her tracks, sitting down on the ground of the park she entered, breathless.

Guy approached, but didn’t sit with the girl.
Again, he paced in front of her.

Girl got up and walked to the sports area.

Guy carried her to the sit-up bench. They sat.

He said, “I’ve had enough. I’m not your dog. Don’t just scold me or hit me whenever you like. “

Words came down on girl and to her, it felt like acid was washing down her.

It hurt so much, so much.

“I’ve been giving in to you for a very long time. You think yourself”

Girl then could not register what guy was saying, and all she had in her mind was this one word.

Death.

She felt wasted. She had done a lot for the guy, but guy adamantly refused to acknowledge girl’s doing for him, and adamantly believe that he is the wronged one.

Words ringing in her head, everything goes, “You are ridiculous. You are controlling me. You are treating me like your dog.”

These may not be the exact words guy said, but girl feel it was somehow what he meant.

Guy started to walk away.

Girl stood up, saying, “I’m gonna die now!”

She ran to the beach, guy in tight pursuit again.

She crossed the patches of grass.
Guy followed.

Girl felt sand under her foot.
Finally, she said to herself.
She was so weary of running, and the dark sea just looked tempting, so calm, so inviting.

Guy in a frenzy behind, frantically shouting, “Don’t!!! Don’t!!!”

Perhaps from the weariness of it all, girl’s legs buckled and gave way.

She fell, just inches from the waves slapping on the wet sand.

Guy caught up with girl and hurled her up.

Girl took out her slippers and use her bare feet to anchor better on the sand, refusing to let guy pull her away.
Guy won of course, and managed to pull her away.
“My slippers!”, girl said.
He then led her back to where her slippers were on the sand, never letting go of her hand for fear of girl trying to run away again.
When they were safely on the path again, guy bent down to sweep away the sand that stuck on to girl’s leg.
“It’s ok, forget ‘bout it.”, was all the girl could say.
Guy held on to her wrist, but not her hand.
In a kind of grip that hurts, but not as much as how the girl hurt inside.
“This is the first time I’m using violence on you.”, guy commented.
He then tightened his grip.
Because of anger, thought the girl.
The guy then turned to hug her, saying, “I love you a lot.”
Girl stood thinking if she should return the hug.
She eventually did.
It’s an answer to how much she love the guy too.
Guy told girl that he has changed a lot for girl.
She knows. She is aware. She is appreciative.
But the thing that affects girl now is that, she is hugely disappointed that guy broke his promise and had contact with the girl.
The girl did nothing of this sort to the guy even when they weren’t together for that short period.
Correct word to describe the girl’s feeling was,

Devastated.

No point in continuing this story as it is getting far too sad for me. All the empty promises that the guy made.
The level of fidelity he had when they broke up.

But one thing that was alright was, after they patched, he kept to his promises.

Issue here is he promised all those things like not talking to that *BFH even before breaking.
Does it mean that when you break, you are entitled to do this kinda thing?
It’s a dilemma.
I’m thoroughly confused.





*Bitch From Hell