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Hey bloggie!!!! So damn long never update in you already… deprived all my readers of my blog, haha… Fun’s out, exams are in. Boring. Tiresome. Other than exams, my life goes on as per normal… no new people, not much parties. Everyone’s in the exam mood. Even my frenz in JC… prelims are coming for them too… I thank god I don’t have to be put under the ordeal of maths exams!!!! C Maths stands for Crazy Maths!

As for me and him, I guess we’ve reach the point of saturation… maximum already. How do I put it? As in, we got so used to having each other around, and we talked too much last time, so much so that now, we’re left with little things to talk bout. Actually not really nothing, juz that he’s got no time. He always needs to sleep! And he kept on telling me that I won’t understand how tiring army unless I go through the same ordeal… ok, I guess I really don’t know, and I don’t wanna know! This is a plus point for girls… the only plus point! We had little squabbles here and there, but at the end of the day, I guess we still love each other. Correction. We know we still love each other. Just that I can’t stand friendster! All the girls telling him he’s good and stuff. So what? He ain’t your man! So fuck off my man! Those girls… when they have a boyfriend, I make sure I do the same back to them… haha… call me evil, revengeful, bitchy, whatever… I just think they are bringing it upon themselves. Oh yes! Speaking of bitchy, I get so fired up… not to mention pissed.

Know what? People says I’m bitchy, juz by looking at what I wear! And the most hilarious and infuriating thing is, they are my friends. Not really close, but we do talk. There’s one thing I can say bout them. We really come from different world. Diffrerence?

ME: speaks English.
THEM: speaks mandarin.
ME: listens to English songs (only one or two mandarin ones)
THEM: opposite of me.
ME: loves going place with ambience
THEM: prefers neighbourhood shopping mall
ME: Got sense of dressing
THEM: Bermudas with sports shoes???!!!!!!! ( only one girl la. I dislike her)
ME: Cool with revealing stuffs
THEM: uptight about it
ME: cool with everything! (straight forwardness)
THEM: uptight bout everything (bitching)

Hey! Don’t get me wrong. I’ve nothing against their likings. Point is, we’re totally different. And opposites don’t attract, see? And they are just my outside Chinese orchestra friends. Not my close ones (thank god). They’re nice peeps, but not really my clique of friends. And yes! They say I’m bitchy cuz of my dressing! Find a better reason, will they. And they know me as a person, a friend, and that’s even more ironic. If you walk down orchard road and you see me in some cat suit or low cut top, you say I’m bitchy, I’m fine. Provided they don’t know me. But they know me, you get what I’m driving at? One more thing. I didn’t exactly wear revealing stuffs to practice. That’s another thing I don’t get. Worse still, my boyfriend’s army friends, they went and take a look at my friendster pic, and tell him the same thing! What the hell… it’s ok… thank you everyone, those who say I look bitchy… I’m taking it well, and taking it as a compliment.

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Hey Bloggie… Long time since I update, other than the simple and full of hatred one bout Caroline recently. Recently I’ve developed lazybones disease… Don’t really like to do things… No more self discipline. Haha… Which is kinda bad, cuz exams are coming.
Right, I’ll tell you more bout me and him now… It’s kinda going ok… Juz that I’m still a teeny weenie bit affected by friendster and his testimonials for people and people’s testimonial for him. And by ‘people’, I mean girls… Bloody hell! Can’t they be more automatic? More sensitive bout the girlfriend’s feeling? No, they won’t and never will. Ok, enough bout this. Ya, so we recently went to k-box to sing… God, I think I sounded horrible… And oh, I also told him I think we don’t have chemistry between us anymore. He says it’s because we’re too use to each other already… Well, I thought so too. I don’t’ get excited when I see him like I do last time… So now we’re in a quest to get our chemistry back… and probably is coming back… A bit by a bit… A little by a little... And he said, “keep up the good work!” Yeah… I don’t know why, but I miss him almost everyday recently… Maybe chemistry is really coming back. And oh, I asked him what’s love. I mean, I asked a lot of people… And they don’t really know how to describe it. He’s the only one who can tell me the definition, is this god or bad? Are we supposed to be able to define love? Anyway, he’s definition of love is, you want to be with the person, care for the person, understand the person… Any takers? Is it really like that?
My darling’s actually quite sweet la… See, the problem with our relationship is, we can’t see the sweet things we do for each other. Like, I can’t see he’s done anything sweet for me, but he tells me taking me out to the places I like are examples of sweet things… But I see it as a date, not sweet things. That’s the problem… I guess my boyfriend is not very good with words… But he’s still sweet… I guess I’ve to learn to appreciate everything he does and see it as being sweet… Anyway, I love him all the same…
I think I’m suffering from paranoia… I’ll be so scared that he’s cheating on me… too many things happened between us last time… it’s not that I don’t wanna trust him… I’ve fault last time too… How do I put it? Ok, never mind… Juz have to know my relationship is a little bit different from others’.
I guess that’s about it… the only interesting thing I can blog about is bout my baby… Will be back to update “SOON”. Haha! =) Till then!
PS: I HATE FRIENDSTER!!!!