Strutting her stuff.: April 2008

Okay, my life is damn screwed up.

I no longer know what i am doing anymore.

I see the things that i've done as kinda pointless.

Just yesterday i have to be such a bitch. Oh, it's not even just yesterday. Some months ago too.

What was i thinking?

People like me will be one of the reasons why adultery is committed.

Was lying on his bed yesterday and i told him i love him. He said i love you too.

Of course i don't love him. I was just testing myself, how easily can this sensitive and special word comes out of my mouth. Easy, it was.

Same goes for him i guess.

I feel like my life is kinda empty now. Suddenly.

Imagine the disappointment those around me will feel when they know what the hell i've been doing for the past one year.

It takes a lot of managing of emotions for those who are just like me.

The things we do will forever be unjustifiable to individuals who think their thoughts just the way the society, from long ago, has formatted into the human brain.

What is right and what is wrong.

Often people just like to do something wrong. Not that they accidentally committed a mistake, but they, just like me, find thrills doing the wrong things.

That the society will frown upon.

Yearns to be normal.

Haha! This is another proof i have of having been to Mustafa before. =)

The stuffs there are really nice and cheap. Well maybe only to a part Indian girl like me.

Anyways, yup, Mustafa is cool! And it's 24 hours!

This is the picture to prove that we got royalty-like treatment whenever me and Ruth patronize Banana Leaf Apollo @ Little India Shopping Arcade.

Balu, or whoever that is, the guy that's damn nice, super nice to us, never fails to serve us a plate of fruits F.O.C.

Anway, don't be jealous.... It's only natural that he does it. Because we are such a regular there. Goes there like, every 2-4 weeks...

Just listen to me now, i feel so smug. HAHA!!!

Anyway, bought 17 mag just now...

At least now there's something else to entertain me other than my DS (which is doing a very good job of entertaining me recently).

Now that school's on again, it's not so boring anymore.

Something to wake up to.

I like school actually. Can see friends and catch up everyday and stuff. Well, girls.

Ok i think i will go play DS now.

This is my latest effort in blinging my stuff! Thanks to the inspiration XX has given on her blog.

Nice? I did them myself leh!!!!!!

Check out two post before this and u will see my boring ipod in it's original state.

So pimped now, right?

Was doing this yesterday night. Spent around an hour.

Wasn't that difficult though cause i wasn't using tweezers. I got this thing from the same shop i bought the blings from, called magical tip, and it's really so magical la! Makes doing such nitty gritty stuff a breeze.

Anyway i think blinging your stuff is addictive. I'm definitely gonna do more of such things. Maybe to my laptop (after i get the clear casing of course! can u imagine i just do it on m laptop itself then i grew out of blings one day?), my DS and my cam.

While i was doing this yesterday, i was thinking maybe i should make a job out of pimping my gadgets.

ANYONE WHO WANTS TO GET THEIR GADGETS PIMPED WITH BLINGS, LEAVE A TAG AND YOUR EMAIL ADD OR EMAIL ME @ mae.tpr@gmail.com OKAY?

A MINIMUM OF $15- $25 ON TOP OF THE PRICE OF THE BLINGS WILL BE CHARGED BASE ON THE SIZE OF YOUR GADGET OR WHATEVER IT IS THAT U WANT TO PIMP AND THAT CAN BE PIMPED.

PRICE NEGOTIABLE.

CHEAPER THAN THOSE PUSH CARTS IN SHOPPING MALL THAT DO THIS IN RETURN FOR A LOT OF $$$$$$$$$.

And this is the back of m ipod. The four lines of blings are just to see if the colour of the blings matches with the ipod or not.

That's also my cute initial in ruby!

It may not look shiny cause of the angle i took it from, but in real it's really nice!

U know, i hope my boyfriend accepts me for who i am and accepts my love for BLINGS!

Better still, i hope he joins in my craze and let me bling his phone or something.

HAHA!!!!

This is Yiwen and me! In the toilet of Meritus Mandarin.

Camwhoring of course.

Sorry for the super poor quality of the pictures. Took them using VGA sized shoots.

This is some silly idea that the girl suggested. Picture was taken by her. Special though. But i look so ugly la!

See the LEGO look alike thingy? It's actually a speaker for ipod!

So cute right? Important part is it is PINK and it matches my ipod perfectly. =)

And the volume keys are actually the protruding part of the LEGO brick.

The sad thing is, i misplaced it and now everyday i look around my room wondering where it is. Sad right? =(

See these are 3 out of 6 of the bowls that comes in a set which i bought from IKEA.

And i finally got around to de-cluttering my make up corner. Now it is neater. But still, i need to look for a bigger "basket" or "tray" or whatever it is for my fakies. (a.k.a fake eyelashes)

And as u can see i have tons of mascara just for the pair of eye i have.

Oh, the big basket is from IKEA too.

Torn

(Play video from video bar at the same time.)

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around
Like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored

You don't seem to know,

Don't seem to care
What your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's whats going on,
Nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is haow I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn. Torn.

There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I've a lot of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn.

Qing Ming Festival.

Actually i don't think this can be called a festival la. It's quite a saddening festival.

Yup so me and my parents and my auntie and my cousins went to pay a visit to out ancestors' tomb.

Ancestors a.k.a my paternal Ah Gong and Ah Mah.

Yeah, chinese have this so called festival that requires people to go and pray and make some offerings to the ancestors (and at the same time give the one who helped look after tomb, like doing some cleaning, cutting the grass etc., the money. Their pay. ).

It got me thinking for quite a bit.

First, i think i'm gonna get my funeral picture and those that u put on the tomb ready.

I want a nice and pretty picture up there. Don't want those fierce fierce ones...

Second, i'm gonna tell my close friends and my family how i want my funeral to be, and if i want cremation on burial. But i think i'm ok with both.

Anyway my Ah Gong had his corpse buried. And my Ah Mah had hers cremated, so now hers is all a pile of remains of her bones in the urn, sitting behind some marble piece, in the wall.

So today when we went to pay a visit to her remains, my auntie and cousins (my cousins are all older than me by more than ten years, married with kids.) took out these super cute miniatures

moulded by the shape of some Dim Sum. Indians, think Tiffin. Malays, think... i don't know what. Ang Mohs or the english inclined, think Hong Kong tea time food. Uber cute la!

So back to what i thought out.

Third, tell friends and family to buy lotsa pink stuffs and cute miniatures like donuts blah blah to jazz up the marble piece in front of my urn.

I feel sad seeing my Ah Mah's picture on the marble piece... I kinda miss her, though we weren't that close when she's alive. She calls me Big Fat Girl when i was super young, like 5-6 years of age. And she always will make kueh for me to eat, then will ask if i want the filling to be peanut or bean.

She passed away when i was 15. My sec 3 year. 2003. And to date, seeing her picture still triggers my eyes to produce some tears.

Moral of the story?

5 years is not enough to get over someone whom u're not that close with.

What more a person whom u're damn close with?

And an interesting fact. For those couples who put their urn together, the man is usually the one who died earlier. Earlier than the wife 'bout ten or more years.

As for my Ah Gong, he died 1983. Five years before i was born. So seeing his picture didn't get my feelings stirred.

Very tired. Will stop here.

SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now is just the point of time whereby i'm speechless most of the time.

Ok, this is like my favorite song, although it's from quite long ago=)

As in this is my favorite song's lyrics.

Kinda cool.

Can click my video bar and listen to it at the same time. So empowering. Not the typical i-so-damn-need-u song.

Destiny child's Survivor

Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
but I'm stronger
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
but I'm richer
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
now I'm wiser
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
but I'm smarter
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
but I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya,
sold my million

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what)
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what)
I'm a survivor (what), I'm gonna make it (what)
I will survive (what), keep on survivin' (what)

Thought I couldn't breath without ya,
I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without ya,
perfect vision
You thought I couldn't last without ya,
but I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya,
but I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya,
but I'm on top
Thought that it would be over by now,
but it won't stop
Thought that I would self destruct,
but I'm still here
Even in my years to come,
I'm still gonna be here

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what)
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what)
I'm a survivor (what), I'm gonna make it (what)
I will survive (what), keep on survivin' (what)

I'm wishin' you the best,
pray that you are blessed
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna lie on you or your family, yo
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna hate on you in the magazine
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna compromise my christianity
(I'm better than that)
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the internet
('Cause my mama taught me better than that)

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what)
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what)
I'm a survivor (what), I'm gonna make it (what)
I will survive (what) , keep on survivin' (what)

After all of the darkness and sadness,
soon comes happiness
If I surround myself with positive things,
I'll gain prosperity

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what)
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what)
I'm a survivor (what), I'm gonna make it (what)
I will survive (what),keep on survivin' (what)

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what)
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what)
I'm a survivor (what), I'm gonna make it (what)
I will survive (what), keep on survivin' (what)

Be prepared for lots of photos!!!

This is from my mini shopping spree on the 31st March, Monday!

Guess where did i buy this from? Little India shopping arcade!!!

Cost only $9 and there's like 2 more hidden boxes inside this big one u know!!! Very worth it right? Though i think Ruth wouldn't think likewise, haha.

This!!!!! My loots from Far East Plaza... o nice and cute. Esp. the ice cream that i've been thinking of ever since i saw it like a month or two ago...

But now the apple is cuter! I think i kana conned though. The ice cream don't have the strap leh... Must go back and tell the auntie.

The auntie who said i look nice wearing a cap, haha. Maybe she's trying to suck up to me cause she knows i'm buying the ice cream without the strap. K lah, maybe i won't go back ad demand for the strap. =)

My stuff from the Taiwan spree finally arrived! At first me and Michelle (Bf's sister) thought we were conned by the spree organizer cause it took sooo long to have any news from the person! Like we ordered January, then after two months wich is end of March then it arrived.

As the saying goes, better late than never.

Ha! IKEA escapade with Ruth and Deb! The results? These 2 cushions, a set of 6 colorful bowls, and a basket like thingy.

BILL!

Small blue cushion $1.80

Big black cushion $3.50

Basket thingy $3.50

Set of 6 bowls $3.50

Total $12.30

DING!

Loots from US, courtesy of De-bo-rah.

VS Undies!!!!

VS Bag!!!

COACH Skinny!!!

All only amount up to SGD126.30

Deal or no deal? Deal la, of course...

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Super cute top! Not as simple as it appears k... THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR FOR THE LONGEST TIME! 2-3yrs. ot the exact one i want, but still, similar will do.